Last night, I was finishing a door schedule for my level. I didn’t realize it until the end…that few of the symbols were initials of boys that I had crushed on (still crushing on). I thought it was awkward. EK and ML. Before filling out the schedule, I was talking to Kelvin “gohgoh” about KY’s initials. Yes, I did crush on KY during senior year. But he has turned into my inspiration. Oh how initials just keep coming up.
And the funny thing is…it was EK’s birthday. Sadly, I didn’t call him to wish him a happy birthday, but when I saw him in December, I talked to him about his birthday. I hope that I can call him next year even if I’m back here in Hong Kong. I miss him a lot…although I know I should be moving on. But when Kelvin said that “you’ll know when you meet the right person”, I keep thinking about EK. I know he’s perfect even though there is no such thing as the perfect person. However, I look up to EK as my motivation, someone who watches over me so that I don’t make such silly mistakes.
Oh, and did I mention, I told Kelvin to be my inspiration. Ha. Oh yeah, and I saw 黃嘉樂 (Steven Wong) on the new TVB show “Burning Flame III”. He’s really cute!
Yeah, that’s right. I KNEW he had a girlfriend. Wow, my instincts are good. I had times when I thought I was
thinking too much…but hey, look what happened. He has a girlfriend. Been together for a year. Wow. I’m good. Really good. (:
But I still like talking to him. Even though I was “obsessed”, I still treat him as an older brothers. He’s 10 years (more like 11) older than I am…which is great because I get to ask him questions about architecture and etc. Plus, he’s awesome to talk to. Yesterday, we were emailing each other and just getting to know each other. Yupp, we both don’t have brothers and sisters. Oh, and he said if I wanted anything, he’ll buy it for me. Hooray! And I like making fun of him. Just laughing at him. It’s funny to see his reaction. When I left yesterday, I went to see him and pointed at him. Then, I laughed because of the story about how he and his girlfriend met. (It’s really sweet like the love stories in movies!) He was like “you’re laughing at me?” Oh how this brotherly-sisterly love is going to work out really well. I like it.
He’s my inspiration throughout these next 5 years of Architecture. A higher version of Michael.
YES. I’m back to my fangirling over Hong Kong actors because last night, Kevin Cheng and Bosco Wong’s new TVB drama aired. I’m so excited! Kevin looks amazing. He’s hot — and dark. (: Oh, and Steven Wong. He’s not a main character but still part of the group. He’s so cute and actually, Kelvin reminds me of him. It’s kinda funny but I think it’s because of the smile.
Aw, how sad. I thought he would reply to my email and tell me that he’s 10-12 years older. Oh sigh. Hrmph. I’m going to avoid him from now on. Seriously. I bet that when I don’t want to see him, I’ll end up seeing him. That always happens. And when I do want to see him, I don’t get to. Life is that way. You never know what happens and you never really get what you want. I got a reply from him 10 minutes ago. And he was like “how would I know how old you are if you never told me?”. Oh excuses. How can he not know how old I am if everyone keeps saying I’m so young? Luckily, I just told him I’m still in the teen range, not yet 20. Then he’ll say he’s 10 years older. Shut up, I’m not flirting with him. Nor is he flirting with me. Or are we? I dont’ even know. He has a girlfriend. (: Oh brotherly love is good enough now. HOORAYYYYY. I finally get to move on.
But on Friday night, he talked to me. I think he knew that I sent him an email, but he acted like he didn’t know why I was “heh-ing”. At least I still think his smile is the cutest smile I have ever seen. (Okay, I’m only 18 turning 19 but still.)
On the other note, I hate my legs now. I have a bunch of bug bites (fleas/mosquitoes) and they itch like crazy. I’m upset because I had the a/c on too. Stupid fleas. Why does everything like my blood? Seriously, if vampires exist, I think I would be one of the first few people they would bite. (Sorry girls if the vampire is hot. Not my fault that my blood is sweet).
I’ve always wondered what boys talked about when no girls are with them. I remember my friends told me that guys talk about girls, cars, and whatever. I really don’t know even though half of my friends are guys. But what about guys who are 8-10 years older than I am? I wonder what KY talks about. It kinda bothers me. And I wonder what the guys will talk about when they’re hanging out with the other intern.
I want to say hi to KY again and ask if he can take me to that store that Leonard was talking about. Heh. I mean, KY did say “when I walk around”, I’ll see it. Hrmmmm.
I like it when I get CADD. I hate it when I lose stuff on the file without knowing it and I saved it…so I can’t even find it again. Sigh. Rework everything I did yesterday and this morning. ):
PS: The architect who usually gives me new stuff to do, Anthony, looks like the guy who plays a Kelvin in the TVB show during 9:30 PM. Kinda makes me laugh.
I’m definitely not pushing Kelvin away. Not this boy time. I’ve learned from my mistakes and I’m definitely not going to create another regret. Kelvin reminds me of Bongbong gohgoh very much becuase they’re both the same age. I think. I’m not exactly sure, but I can tell you, Kelvin is about 9 years older. He looks like it too. Plus, he’s really nice. I went over to him to say hi because I really wanted to. Yes, I actually went over to say hi. It’s not a regret. I finally told him the seal was so cute….and luckily, the seal belongs to another girl who happens to put it on his desk. It’s been there for a year. But ew, why would I want to play with it if it was given to the girl’s dog to play with it? Sigh Kelvin. So weird. And I asked him where to buy Iphone covers and Leonard was like “I’ve see the prettiest Iphone cover”. Lol. And Kelvin was still listening. And he was asking if I knew the location of the store Leonard was talking about. Nope, I don’t. And Kelvin was like “when you walk around, you’ll know.” But what if I end up not even noticing it? (: Now, the next step. Haha. I need to ask him to take me there. Oh excuses excuses. Maybe I’ll get a picture with him even BEFORE I leave.
Plus, I talked to the secretary — who is my friend/jie too — and I told her that I want to have a dinner party with everyone. Yay. I love how everyone knows who I am even though I don’t think I have met them yet. Oh Mr. Anthony Cheung. My uncle’s classmate. And my USC alum. That reminds me, I still need to meet that other USC Alum. But I did meet a SciArc alum. Yeah, he was like “You’re the one at USC right now, right? I heard Anthony talking.” Oh gossip gossip and how I’m a celebrity. Just kidding.
Yes, I’m not the only summer intern. There’s a bunch. But I am the only girl summer intern. Luckily, there’s this new CUTE intern who sits behind me. He’s mix. And he studies in England. And he’s from Hong Kong. (: Oh perfect. He’s really cute. Seriously. I can’t help smiling. I’m going to be smiling from now on because I have that guy (named Niall) and Kelvin. Yes, you’re probably thinking “Niall? What kind of name is that?” But it sounds really cool.
Extra: Did I mention, Kelvin’s initial is KY? HAHA. IRONIC, HUH?
Day 17.
I did say that I wasn’t going to believe in fairy tales anymore, right? Oh whatever. I still do. I mean, I do believe in happily ever afters but I just don’t believe in the “perfect” prince charming. Even if his personality, charm, and image are considered perfect, he’s availability isn’t. It’s funny how I keep falling for people who are already taken. But those people stay in my mind even though I know they’re taken. Sadly, I keep having a feeling that the really cute cute one at the firm I’m interning at has a girlfriend. Sad, I know. But that’s okay. As long as he treats me like a little sister, I’m fine with that too. You know, any opportunity to see his adorable smile. Seriously, I think I’m obsessed with his smile. I won’t deny that.
And one thing, I was sad when I thought he wasn’t at work today. Luckily, my frown turned back into a smile when I saw him…five minutes ago. Deep in my mind, I was like “Yay, he’s here!” Oh sigh. I’m so stupid. I’m such a little girl when it comes to boys. And there’s a music video that describes exactly what’s going on in my mind. Oh daydreams.
Day 16.
I feel so welcomed at the firm even though there are few people who may think I’m really stupid or too young to work even though they’re older by 5 or 6 years. However, everyone else who is in their late twenties, thirties, and even fourties treat me like their younger sister. Some people already have sisters, but I’m so lovable that they treat me as their younger sister/trainee. Seriously. Hopefully, no one treats me like their “daughter”. That’s just creepy.
Other than that, I’m really blessed to feel happy while interning in Hong Kong. Oh, so that cute guy I mentioned who is on the team I’m helping….is really sweet. He’s so nice and helpful. He has such a cute smile too. I bet he’s older than me by 8-10 years. Hopefuly, he doesn’t have a girlfriend or I’ll be sad. I heard, a lot of guys like girls who are 6-10 years younger than they are. Like my parents and uncle&aunt. Interesting. Bongbong gohgoh is older than me by 9 years. So is that guy, Kelvin.
I met up with Gerianne last night for dinner. I’m happy to have seen my bestest. I cant’ wait to go see Transformers 2 on Sunday! Yesssss (:
It’s time for Happy Hour at the work. The studio I’m part of is in charged and they created the “ebay” theme with auction and the money goes to St. James Settlement. A good cause. To think of it, I really want to volunteer with disabled/mentally-challenged people. Seriously.
Day 15.
I absolutely adore my baby cousin. She’s turning 1 in two months already! The funny thing is she looks like my mom more than I look like my mom. Seriously. It’s freaky. But I believe that in a way that cannot be explained, my baby cousin looks like her mom (my aunt). Really.
I love playing hide and seek with her because she ends up finding me. Well, maybe it’s because I end up not “completely” hiding just to make sure she doesn’t cry. But I’m such a bad influence on her like my uncle (her dad) became a bad influence on me. I taught my baby cousin how to yell and shout at people. But luckily, I taught her some words (and letters) like “hey hey hey” (ey ey ey) and K for okay. (: I’m good like that.
On the other note.
I don’t want to seek forever. Please come out wherever you are even though I will be seeing you soon.
Oh, and apparently, the 3 only AIA HK members in the firm are my uncle’s friend, the chairman, and another high-ranking person. Two of them are USC alumni. My uncle’s friend went to Columbia for Master’s so I have keep contact with him if I want to go there and need recommendations! And also, the high-ranking person is a USC alumni and Harvard Grad alum. He went to the same schools as one of my USC Arch professors. Small world. Recommendations sound good to me. Now, I just need to meet him. Oh, and I need to meet the chairman’s son who is the firm’s vice chairman. He graduated from Cornell Arch undergrad. I need to meet him. Before it’s too late.
Day 13.
I wish someone can just tell me not to be so afraid of the real world and not to be so innocent. Wait, I think they have. Once. And they never mentioned it again.
I chose to be the good girl not the bad girl. The angel is bigger, stronger, and wiser than the devil. That’s why I’m always known as the good girl. But there are times when I decide I need to make the wrong choices, but those choices end up becoming really minor. For now, I’m observing what mistakes people make and how I can change them. However, in the end, I’m the one picking up the pieces. I’m the one taking care of them. It’s the consequence, but why do I deserve it? I didn’t do anything wrong. Or maybe I did. Maybe I chose a path that created more regrets when I told myself I wasn’t going to make any more regrets. Then there’s consequences.
My friends are back in Hong Kong. I talked to Gerianne yesterday, but I’m not able to see her until 7 days is gone so that nothing happens. Nothing will happen. And my neighbors downstairs came back to Hong Kong. I haven’t seen them yet but I’m excited.
Friday nights and Saturdays in the city are going to be good. I hope. And did I mention, I can fly now. I’m on my own. I can finally let go and not have to go back. But the funny thing is every where I turn, I end up seeing something that reminds me of them. But maybe that’s just my imagination. Daydreams.
Day 9.
